HOPE YVEIN BELSKI.

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HOPE YVEIN BELSKI.
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welcome to the world of tomorrow
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BURY ALL YOUR SECRETS IN MY SKIN
come away with innocence and leave me with my sins
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WE ALL HAVE STRENGTHS.

. sweet/caring/loving/nice; Because of her family's peaceful nature Hope is what one would consider a saint. She was raised to give people love and to care for them so they can "grow" properly-- like flowers. Hope is probably the sweetest thing you will ever meet and these traits make it easy to trust her because she would seem not to have any intentions on bringing anyone harm.

. open-minded/intelligent; Another thing she was raised to do. Hope finds it very hard to... be simple minded. She likes to be open and make sure you know she is being open. Usually she is up for anything unless she knows something isn't a good idea. That is sort of where her intelligence kicks in for her. She uses her intelligence whenever she can-- making sure to think all of her options through. This makes her very good at fooling people.

. wiccan family background; She seems to be very connected to nature and the universe. This is because she was born into a family of Wiccans and they have passed down everything they know to her. In a way you could say that she is very "spiritually" in tune with everything-- which makes her a peaceful person. She knows a lot of things such as remedies and how to focus her energy so things go her way. It's not a power, just simply a way of life Hope follows called "The Secret" which is sort of like what you think is what you get. This makes Hope a pretty positive person, she is also pretty wise for her age.

. dreams; There is one strange thing about her that acts like a strength. In a way she can see the future in her dreams. Not by any means is it a supernatural power or a straight up vision but her dreams tend to give her hidden messages of the future. She doesn't know how to explain it but her family has described it to her as a simple gift from the gods.

WE ALL HAVE OUR WEAKNESSES.

. incredibly shy/soft speaker; That's pretty self exclamatory. She has always been shy. The reason being isn't too clear but that's just how she is. It can prove to be a disadvantage for her since she won't... speak her mind, really.

. can be clumsy when nervous; This mostly refers to boys seeing as though she's never had a boyfriend nor has she ever had the courage to ever... SPEAK to a boy. Anyway, Hope tends to get nervous easily, it all ties together with her shyness.

. always tries to see the good in people/trusts too easily; A HUGE disadvantage for her because this is the easy route for people to take advantage of her.

. emotional; She simply can't deal with her emotions very easily. She tends to seem very confused, that only means that she is confused about how she feels.

. bruises easily; Simple. Her body is extremely fragile-- no one knows why but most think there is a sort of illness.

. gets scared easily; This is because of her strange message dreams. Most of the time she get's nightmares and only sees... well, BAD futures. Nothing good exactly. The things that happen in her dreams have caused her raise in fear over the years.

. men; They tend to be a huge distraction for her. She gets nervous around them very easily.


ADMIT IT OR NOT, WE'VE ALL BEEN AFRAID.

. being abused/being hurt; She has seen a lot of abuse with her mother and father and it's something that scares her a lot. The last thing she wants is for someone she loves to hurt her in some shape for form.

. needles/asylum/hospitals; No! No no no no NOOO! She absolutely without a doubt hates these! It's probably her biggest fear ever. Once her father had found out that she could sort of see the future, and from other things she was saying, He thought that Hope should be in a mental hospital. Hope fears them very much.

. being raped; This is a normal girl fear, not to mention she has a bad past with this certain subject.

. drugs; Her father was very much into drugs. As far as she knows they caused her father's insanity and caused him to beat his family-- she thinks they cause "evil" and wants nothing to do with them.

. death; Witnessing her mother's death was the scariest thing she thinks she could of ever seen in her life. Just by watching it happen Hope fears death because she fears being in pain.

. being alone In a way it's hard for her to function when she has no one to at least be with...

. loosing another person she loves The death of her mother has caused this fear.

AND WE HAVE OUR HABITS, GOOD & BAD.

. temper; Let's face it, Hope isn't going to be peaceful ALL of the time. However it is very rare that she'll get mad. You'll know if she's mad if she balls of her fists and her face turns a bit red. She feels embarrassed by it but that's what happens.

. cries when frustrated; She hates this about herself. If she is overly frustrated then her brain seems to react to it like she is very sad. For some reason she cries. It's something that can't really be explained.

. bushes... A LOT; She can't help it, but a lot of things make her feel embarrassed or nervous a lot of the time.

. looks down; A nervous reaction.

. twirls her hair around one finger; A shy reaction.

THEN THERE ARE THE THINGS THAT BUG US.

. being in one place for too long; She gets bored easily and likes to see new places and people. This sort of annoys her but not too much.

. when people think she's sick/mental; She knows that she's not but it bothers her when people don't think that she's normal. She can just see and hear things that other people are too oblivious to-- that's not her fault xP

. when people are mean to her; You would want people to be nice to you too if you were giving them nothing but kindness.

. curse words; She HAS used them every now and then but her soul is very innocent. Usually when she hears cuss words it makes her feel like you're angry with her. This is because of her past with her father and the fact that every time he would cuss a lot usually her mother would get a beating out she and her sister would be yelled at.

. dirty words; Words like "whore", "Slut", "skank" and other things that relate to sex and such make Hope embarrassed. It doesn't exactly bother her when people use them but it's sort of the same concept as with curse words. Let's just say that Hope is very... young when it comes to dirty words. So if you hear her using weird words like "games"... she's talking about sex. Or... "flytrap" for jailbait.... other things like that.

. when people underestimate her; She doesn't look strong but she's pretty clever. So when people look down on her for what skills she does have that bugs her. She knows her strengths and being underestimated makes her want to prove herself better than she already HAS been doing.

AND, HEY, WE CAN ALL DREAM.

. to find her sister; This is Hope's biggest goal at the moment. She lost her sister during the war and is wandering about trying to find her. Hope's sister is the only person she has left in the world and she is very important to her.

. to fall in love; Despite Hope's past with how her mother was treated, Hope still wants to find someone to love her like her Daddy loved her Mama. The only downfall to this is that Hope is afraid to get close to me because of her Step-father.

. to figure out what the government is hiding; She plans to get more involved in what's happened to the world after she finds her sister. The fact that the world went into this huge war on the Government's hands is really turning out to be a thing Hope wants to investigate.

. help the resistance; She isn't exactly sure what happened with the war but as far as she can understand the government is the bad guys. She wants to help the resistance as best as she can once she finds her sister.

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SO IF YOU LOVE ME LET ME GO
and run away before i know
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Hello! Umm... My name is Hope Belski and I'm 16 years old. I was born in Costanta, Romania on April 28th. Costanta is a really pretty city, one of the richest in Romania. My family is pretty rich but that is because my daddy inherited A LOT of money from his daddy and so on and so on. Apparently our family was wealthy because we are really good at gamboling-- they were also very wise and knew how to invest their money. We lived in this biiiiiiiiiiiig house on the hills and as far as I remember from my childhood we had lots of fun in that house.

I'm the youngest between me and my big sister Natasha. She's super nice and really, really pretty. I've always been jealous of her because she was so popular at school and stuff. But I'm pretty cool at school too. Daddy had us learn the ways of the arts. I learned how to play the harp, the piano, and the violin. Tasha was always better at playing them than me but there was two things I could do better. I could sing and dance. Daddy used to be really really proud of me too! I was one of the best dancers in Romania and a lot of the concerts I was in helped us out a lot too. Everyone in our family tries to do our best to keep the family together and fed. Tasha was a model and she had many violin concerts too.

Mama was sick though, so we mostly did it for her. She gets sick really, really easily so she stays at home a lot. Mama is really sweet though. I've always been super close to her my whole life. Mama's a wiccan... which means she believes in witchcraft. She knows a lot about candles and tarot cards and stuff and has taught me and Tasha a lot about them. Tasha never really cared much for it but I always did... Wiccans are really peaceful people and I think I really rubbed off on me. I loved that our family was so happy...

But then Daddy got really sick. He got cancer when I was 9. He had to rest and stuff. None of us even knew that Daddy had cancer for so long. Sometimes I wonder if he was hiding it from us. Daddy died on a Tuesday morning, May 13th... I was still only 9 years old but I remember it like it was yesterday. Mama was really sad, I think we all where. I don't know what mama was thinking though-- but she got daddy burned down into ashes and put him in this really pretty vase that she put on top of the fireplace. She told us that Daddy would always be there for me and Tasha. Tasha never believed it... in fact she lost a lot of Hope in everything. She quit playing the violin and started getting into a lot of trouble with her older friends.

We still talked a lot, actually Tasha took more care of me then Mama did for both of us. I can understand that though, she was still really upset about Daddy... and she was also dating this new guy. Tasha hated that guy though, she said he and Mama were playing games. At first I thought that was a good thing but Tasha said when grown ups play games it's not fun. She said adult games hurt a lot. I didn't believe her but sometimes at night Mama was making noises that made me fear for her life. I figured that Tasha was right. Actually she happened to be right about a lot of things.

Mama and our new Daddy got married half a year later. I remember on Mama's wedding day she looked scared every time she looked at me. I never understood.. but how could I? I was only 10.

After the wedding new Daddy got really mean all of a sudden. He would yell at Mama a lot, then he would tell us that me and Tasha were worthless and didn't do anything. I have never heard someone yell so loud... or sound so mean. When OUR Daddy was alive he was always nice to us. I didn't understand this new Daddy. What made him so angry all of the time? I soon found out what exactly that was. He would drink this really nasty smelling stuff. I saw my daddy drinking that stuff too but not nearly as much as this guy. He would also smoke and shoot this needle in his arm a lot. Tasha called them drugs.

That's when the abuse started up. I first saw new Daddy hit mama when she accidentally dropped dinner on the floor. He called Mama stupid and started hurting her. I remember crying and wondering why he was doing this to her. She was tried! He over worked her too much! Tasha seemed tired of this too... and all of a sudden she started to yell at New Daddy telling him to stop hurting Mama. She was punching him and kicking him-- and all I could do was cry, frozen in my seat. New Daddy got really mad at Tasha and pushed Mama so hard she fell into the kitchen. New daddy had grabbed Tasha and started hitting her too, ripping her clothes off and pushing her onto the table. I can't get too far into that... I just remember hearing Tasha screaming and crying her lungs out. She was crying for Mama... but all Mama did was grab me and take me upstairs... she stayed with me in my room, her arms protectively around me while she prayed to the gods. I couldn't listen to her though, I could only listen to Tasha screaming for Mama to help her.

Now I know what "games" were... and I didn't like them.

This went on for a couple more years... I'm 15 now. New daddy would play games with Mama and Tasha almost every night while I stayed in my room like Mama told me to do. Eventually new Daddy came for me one night. He almost had me though but Mama stopped him-- trying to fight him off like Tasha had done so many years ago for her. New Daddy cussed a lot and started beating Mama. But this time around it was a lot worse than usual beatings. Mama was bleeding a lot while New Daddy was hitting her with a hammer. Mama's screaming was awful... I didn't know what to do. Then Mama's screaming stopped. He blood was all over the place, all over my night gown. New Daddy only smiled and started walking toward me when I heard loud banging. New Daddy had fallen to the ground, his back all bloody. Tasha was standing at my bedroom door with a gun in her hands. She only told me to get some clothes together.

Me and Tasha escaped together to the United States where we settled in this apartment in New York. She had stolen all of Daddy's money from the house and took it with us when we left Romania. Tasha told me that we were going to always stay together and be happy-- to forget about our life in Romania. Mama and Daddy were both dead now and all we had was each other. I thought that she was right...

But then the big world war started and everything was destroyed into rubble. I don't really know what the war was about, Tasha wouldn't let me watch anything scary on the tv. But when the war got really bad, our apartment got destroyed. I don't know what happened, I just remember running with Tasha to try and escape the destruction when the ceiling hit me. I remember hearing Tasha screaming for me but then her voice disappeared... everything was gone and black.

When I woke up Tasha was gone-- no where to be found. I was surrounded by a lot of dead bodies and rubble. There was nothing left of New York but dust... like Daddy. There wasn't much on my mind besides wanting to cry. I was all alone with no one with me. Tasha was gone and I had no clue where she went to. So... what now in my life?

I'm 16 years old now, I'm Lost... and I'm looking for my sister.

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MY HEART IS JUST TOO DARK TO CARE
i can't destroy what isn't there
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i am Hope Yvein Belski. in this world i am called a LOST and i take no side in this war. the blood running through my veins and marks on my finger tips will bring you a file to tell you that i am human. and on that you will plainly see that i am female. those who see me often say i look a bit like Becky Lou Filip. but my old hazel blue/green eyes make me one of a kind.

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